Everything ends badly otherwise it wouldn't end. -Lloyd Dobler in Say Anything

Make sure you all have your bio-suits on and splash guards down. Because, for the next little while, and because I have surrendered all dignity, I intend to bleed all OVER the damn place.


So. Over the last year, I loved somebody. HARD.

I did it without regret.

I can only think that in the clichéd way of someone suffering unrequited love, that he won’t realize what he’s lost until I’m long gone.

But bottom line is he didn’t think I was worth it.

The sooner I realize that, the better.

And it was not all about me.

Last time I checked, Korea is STILL not in Iowa

I am more sad and scared and anxious that my body can handle I'm afraid. That usually means change is coming.

This anxiety and uncertainty makes me look inward too much and I have a thank you to write that is SO long overdue.

My far away sister friend Jen, sent the three parts of the sister square a fantastic package for Christmas. The contents were amazing...some "smell good" for my skin, some awesome lip stuff, a pair of socks with a NO FARTING symbal (for hashing, obviously) and a perfect scarf that when I wear it feels like a hug. Thank you love, I hope you know how much I appreciated it, and how often I think of you.

Come back soon?